Just a super-duper email.

[zachariah]

From: Dan Smith
To: Zach Carlson

First things first, you really need to dress as
something. Even if you just buy a dollar's worth of
make-up and come as a bummy clown. Sifu would not
appreciate not having costume. We will fix you even
if I have to dress you up myself.

Second, it is the commuter's loungs not COMPUTER
lounge. Tell Bhunt it's the same room with the tv
that he and I hung out in last time he was at the
university.

Third, Dan advice. You have asked for the dragon's
wisdom and you will recieve it. Most of what I will
type will not do justice to what I need to say to you
so I will give you a bite or two and really let you
have it in a couple of weeks when we get together. I
have felt that I need to have a talk with you for a
while now. You already have knowledge and wit. You
have always had that. You're just not certain on how
to apply it. That comes with wisdom which is what you
really need to focus on. To strengthen your resolve
and your motivation. You must decide what you really
want in life. You are making your life way more
complicated than it really is. The answer to your
problem is really simple when it comes to whether or
not you will get what you want out of life. You
either go get and achieve what you want, or you don't.
It's a very simple pondery actually. Your resolve
comes from the strength in your heart. Your heart has
to do the talking. You let the demons of the world
plant doubts in your mind about yourself. They tell
you to quit when you start to feel discomfort and
start to become agitated. The reason you are still
trying to find yourself is that your heart is trying
to talk to you and your mind is too clouded by the
world to listen. Your heart is what shows you the
light at the end of your journey. Your mind is one of
it's tools to help get you there. Your mixing the two
up. You are trying to get your mind to show you the
light, when in actuality the light can not be reasoned
with the intellect. It is shown to your intellect by
the heart that you are ignoring.

Your lack of motivation is you trying to find excuses
to remain comfortable. You feel like you are capable
of doing so much more with your life. That is your
heart, your true nature calling out to you. Your mind
is poisoned somewhat with doubt. You have been
listening to the world more than you should. Go find
what motivates you. Eventually you must find it deep
inside you to motivate yourself. Even my motivation
falters at times. When I realize this, I remember
where I came from and I remember what I stand for.
Then my thoughts go to the people that depend on me.
I see them being inspired by me and that helps give me
the strength to keep on swinging at life.

Lose your excuses Zach. You need to surround yourself
with people that will help keep you motivated. Help
you when you're down. Even I need help at times. I'm
just as human as you are. The difference is that I
believe in myself and have decided that I am going to
do whatever it takes to succeed. I have outgrown my
fear. You are going to have to do that yourself. You
are afraid of failure. Very afraid. So much in fact
that you let the slightest thing give you an excuse to
give up instead of lasting it out and seeing the
outcome.

I feel that you haven't put yourself into a very
nurturing environment. You must surround yourself
with motivated people. Learn from them. Draw from
their strength until you can find your own. You have
to reach deep within yourself and pull it out of you.
Sifu has done that with me. He has pushed me to
levels that I only dreamed of. The main key to all of
that is to remember to believe in yourself. That is
the major cause of most failures. Don't go past the
point of no return. You have so much unused potential
just waiting to burst out of you.

"You are what you eat, and you are whatever you
believe you are." If you believe that you are
superhuman then you will become so. I you believe
yourself trash then you become trash no matter what
you're actually capable of. I have a lot of faith in
you Zach. You're one of the best people I have ever
had the pleasure of being friends with. Find that
light that you have been ignoring but is still calling
out to you. That is the cause of your plight. You
are torn because your heart knows that the way you
have been going is not the right direction for Zacho.
You must learn to filter out of the cloud over your
mind and just follow the signal given by the heart.

A person that can do that is a fully actualized person
that can and will become their true selves. That is
the key to happiness my friend. Remember it's all
about love. I am being harsh with you because I care.
I'd hate to see you fall into a pit that you can't
get out of.

Later.

I'll answer your monkey challenge later. Right now
you need to focus on you (Then you can focus on the
monkeys).