Bah. I'm hungry enough to eat a cow. C'mere, you over-stuffed McBurger with legs! *yum*

[zachariah]

As I sit here typing this, I await a test I have not studied for. The homework that was due today, I have not done. The people I love the most, I do not care to listen to. Why am I in college at all? To satisfy my former beliefs about where I am to take my life? To make my parents happy? To get a higher-paying job with which to buy the things I need to live and make the connections that will determine how happy I am when, because of age or disease or law, I retire? When I am on my deathbed, looking over my life, will I be glad I became a programmer, or will I wish I had looked into other careers? If I want so much to be in this career, why am I fighting so hard to sabotage my education for it?!? Why do I not listen to my conscience?

update: Am done with test now. It wasn't exactly difficult, I'm hoping to get a C+ on it.

Comments

Banana chips are better than um McBurgers with legs.. cause they are yummy.. and you can break teeth

[dinari.livejournal.com]

*hugglies* Well I personally hope that your score is better than you think it will be..

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*hugglies* Well I personally hope that your score is better than you think it will be..

<As I sit here typing this, I await a test I have not studied for. The homework that was due today, I have not done.> ..sounds like you need a break then.. *hugglies*

<The people I love the most, I do not care to listen to.> .. well if you read this post.. I can understand what you mean here.. stress is killer.. the more you have the more you separate yourselves from those around you.. :/

<Why am I in college at all?> To make your family proud.. to excell in a society that wants higher and higher qualifications.. and to eventually not be able to find a job and have to work at Wendy's.. sorry.. that wasn't ,uch help, huh? *hugs*

<To satisfy my former beliefs about where I am to take my life?> Why former? Have they changed that much?

<To make my parents happy?> If that's what you want to do.. go for it.. but if you really don't like the way things are going.. you'll just have to risk a lil pain and do something for yourself.. (heed my own words huh? :))

<To get a higher-paying job with which to buy the things I need to live and make the connections that will determine how happy I am when, because of age or disease or law, I retire?> Of course.. it's a fucked up system.. :/

<When I am on my deathbed, looking over my life, will I be glad I became a programmer, or will I wish I had looked into other careers?> If you really have to ask yourself this question to begin with.. I'd recomend looking at all your options.. and find something that you <b>REALLY</b> engoy doing rather than something that'll just secure your future.. after all.. what good's a future if you aren't happy?

<If I want so much to be in this career, why am I fighting so hard to sabotage my education for it?!?> Dunno.. *hugs*though you might not be trying to sabotage it on purpase.. in fact.. this is exactly the question I asked myself with my schooling.. But them, I'm a procrastinator and just plain lazy most of the time.. What I found out though, was that it just wasn't what I wanted to do in life.. though all the electronic skills I learned became an access for when I write.. So maybe you can find a way to incorpoarate everything you like into your job? if any of that statement made any sense..

<Why do I not listen to my conscience?> .. because you don't wanna admitt that being a programmer isn't what you see yourself or what to be doing.. probably because you like the idea of being one so much.. and all the benifits that come with it.. I was the same way when I was looking into enlisting in the Army.. all these wonderful things could happen if only I signed my body over to the government.. and when it came down to it.. It just felt entirely wrong.

If that last was off base.. *shrugs*

*gives Zach a great big hug*

I hope this helped even in the slightest.. objective veiwpoints are always good.. even if you don't like the answers you get

...must use spell check more often...

[dinari.livejournal.com]

much, then, asset, admit, want... ugg.. *sighs and shakes head*