Bah. I'm hungry enough to eat a cow. C'mere, you over-stuffed McBurger with legs! *yum*

As I sit here typing this, I await a test I have not studied for. The homework that was due today, I have not done. The people I love the most, I do not care to listen to. Why am I in college at all? To satisfy my former beliefs about where I am to take my life? To make my parents happy? To get a higher-paying job with which to buy the things I need to live and make the connections that will determine how happy I am when, because of age or disease or law, I retire? When I am on my deathbed, looking over my life, will I be glad I became a programmer, or will I wish I had looked into other careers? If I want so much to be in this career, why am I fighting so hard to sabotage my education for it?!? Why do I not listen to my conscience?

update: Am done with test now. It wasn't exactly difficult, I'm hoping to get a C+ on it.