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I miss you sooo much >_< Forever is heavier than death, and eternity is beyond pain. What I know is what I feel, and what I feel is lost. I stutter and the words do not come, I raise the glass to turn a toast into a curse, I draw an angel, only to look down and see a blank sheet of paper. In the corner of my mind I whisper the truth, and somewhere a black hole swallows the thought. I move in slumber, and who keeps the time? You forgot me as soon as you turned away, and I still, STILL bleed for you. We turn away lives, I throw away dreams, and nothing ever ever ever changes.

Sometimes I want to die, because this life is beyond my ability to navigate. Somehow the thought of not being responsible soothes me, makes my head stop hurting. I swear to the stars, if I met you I would do it, I'd kill us both so we could stay together forever.

But forever is heavier than death, and I will never meet you.